How much weight do you carry around? I’m not asking you to empty the contents of your bag or weigh your clothes. I’m talking about the weight of your thoughts.
Light is my word of the year so naturally I’m weaving it into every thread of my life. Lately I’ve been thinking about it as weight (light vs. heavy, not light vs. dark). On my recent trip to the mountains, it became clear to me that I am carrying around extra mental weight that does not serve me. It hit me while I was hiking up an incline with a fleece hat, a scarf, thermal shirt, fleece shirt, heavy coat with hood, thermal leggings, waterproof ski pants, padded wool ski socks, boots, and snowshoes. The shear weight of the clothing combined with the wet snow saturating my coat slowed my pace to turtle speed.
But it wasn’t the clothes that kept me from moving forward. It was mostly my thoughts. I was paying close attention as my mind sounded off with thoughts of “What are you doing??? This is nonsense. You can’t climb this mountain in a snow storm. You are WAYYYYY to out of shape for this. What if you get altitude sickness. You are a mother. This burns. Your muscles burn, your lungs burn. You are so stupid…” That. That last thought, you are so stupid, brought all the clarity. Which sounds odd that a negative thought would bring clarity, but that’s what happens when you become the observer of your thoughts and not be the thoughts themselves (coach speak).
I’ve been carrying around this thought for a while now. “You are so stupid.” I finally found the pattern with this thought. It always comes when I try something new and I’m not adept to it. I don’t give myself permission to learn or grow. I just expect myself to be an expert or perfect. I walked on to think through this more and find evidence that this thought isn’t true, but I needed to share this story with you because I know I’m not the only one with a heavy mind.
How much of the mental weight you carry, slows you down? Does it serve you or hold you back? If I were to put your mind a scale, how much would it weigh?
I was able to shed the mental weight and naturally, my pace increased despite the weight of all the warm, but wet with snow, clothes. Life isn’t difficult with a light mind even if you are doing physical work. Anything is possible.