Today is the day: My birthday. I am officially forty years old. Growing up I had developed a stigma about this number, as I mentioned in my earlier post about my mother turning this age. Now that forty is here, it doesn’t feel so bad.
I set off in January intending to start living again with intention and so I created my year of the 40 list. A little less tasking, a little more fun. Five months in, I’m actually surprised at the results. The truth is, forty is better than not so bad. At this moment, I feel like the truest version of my self. I suppose I just needed to be reminded of what already exists.
I didn’t want to feel forty and certainly I didn’t want to act like it; whatever that means. The list was created as a catalyst, and as I am slowly checking things off, I feel more at home in my own skin than I ever have before. The “fun” has only made me more aware, and of course, endlessly grateful.
Wrinkles and all, I find myself the most beautiful (inside and out) right now. I’m certainly more confident at this age, no doubt because I work really hard to stay in my business, and not everyone else’s. Practicing gratitude has helped turn every event, good or bad, into a growth mindset. I am stepping into my own as a guide, a healer, a momma, a wife, a sister, and a friend.
As I move through the next seven months, and the year of the 40 comes to a close, I know it will only be the beginning of another forty years that will, no doubt, be even better. The joy from my indigo life is accumulating and it feels good. I may be over the hill now, but the grass is much greener and lot more exciting. Updates are coming soon on all the things I’ve been up to thus far.
One final note. What I find even more surprising, albeit exciting, is that my year of the forty list has inspired so many friends. Over the last few months I’ve been hearing about others that have started their own list in order to live their RAW lives. You don’t have to be hitting a milestone birthday to start. So I want to know about you. Leave me a comment with at least one small thing you plan to do for fun this year!